You see, my father and I have always had a strange relationship. Not a bad one, just different than the normal "father/daughter" dynamic.
We didn't get a long for a good chunk of my life. It wasn't until I moved to another state, at 20 years old, that I finally realized that he was doing the best he could with the parenting tools he had.
To come to my dads defense, he worked odd hours my entire life and couldn't be present for lots of important milestones (well, they were important to me). So that's where our "odd" father/daughter relationship stems from. Since he wasn't someone I could rely on in a tangible way as a child, I grew to resent him for it.
But after leaving when I was 20, we seemed to be better pals. It was a very strange thing to finally give up the "resentment" of something that can't be fixed, since it was all in the past. I had to realize that all I can do is look forward to tomorrow and make it the best day I can. I am also a lot like my father in MANY ways....
Now, as an adult, I can rely on him to be around for me when I need him to be. Some of my favorite times with him are when we get to talk for hours and hours about how to better our own lives. We talk about family, relationships, and work. He has some great advice to give because he's lived a very full life.
So that being said... Happy Father's Day to my FAVORITE FATHER! You're strange. I'm strange. So it all makes sense now :)
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